| Comparison. We live lives comparing ourselves to others. We can't help it. How often do we women yearn for the physical traits of another. How often do we wish we had that successful career, that relationship, that skill, that talent. Especially embracing the life of an adult-with the world watching what the past 25 years of our lives have led to...what kinda of fruit...what do we have to show for ourselves after the investments of our parents and educators. How can we not compare ourselves? How can we not live in envy and fear of failure?
I'm not where I had hoped to be many years ago. I look upon the lives of others around me and at times wonder why my life can't work out so "perfectly" like theirs as well. But slowly...slowly...I am accepting and learning that there is a different plan for ever single one of us. I may not understand why I deal with the things I must deal with at the moment, why I struggle with certain things. But I must trust. In the end-we have to keep walking, keep pressing forward, stay the course of obedience-not because I know I will make something of myself in the end-but because I know God will.
Something I read and have been thinking about:
"No Christian, no matter how experienced or intimate with the Lord, can predict how God will rescue him or her. He is a God of infinite variety. He deals with each of His children according to his or her uniqueness and His purpose to uniquely conform each one to the Lord Jesus. You can rest in the fact He will provide for you in the fullness of His time and purpose. Trust the precious Holy Spirit to keep your eyes focused-not on God's provision but on the Lord Himself. [in ref to Abraham...it was only after Abraham reached the alter and raised the knife over his son Issac's heart that God intervened, and only then did Abraham look up and see the Lord's provision] Obey, by God's grace, to the end. After your heart is tested, God will open your eyes. Then all will be clear. Thousands of His elect have found it so. Do not try to see what is on the blind side of the mountain. See only God!."
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| It's been a long hiatus since I've written or posted on xanga. Everyone has deserted it for facebook-a more concise way of keeping in touch with others. I guess the one thing I miss about xanga is it tends to be more reflective, a journal of life as opposed to simple greetings to those far away.
Life has changed much in the past 2 years since I've posted. I'm in Boston now-studying in a 3 years masters program to become a Physician Assistant. I enjoy studying medicine and highly respect the intellectual environment where I now reside, but there's still something missing. It seems that more and more young adults/post-college graduates feel a greater loss of direction in life. In no way do I feel as though I shouldn't be studying to be a PA or be in Boston, but its not my end goal in life. The journey of discovery continues...life is full of uncertainty...throughout it all...
...all I truly know, is that I find rest in You.
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| Heyyy....did anyone borrow my Stormie Omartian- "Power of a Praying Woman" book? I can't find it and I want to read it..... Please tell me if you have it! thankss |
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| Yesterday I had an intimate dinner date with Meli at Cafe Japengo!!!  Thanks Meli for fattening me up and celebrating with me!!!! you are the best date EVER!!! 
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